Here we are.
I posted this photo on Instagram last Wednesday with this caption:
It’s not lost on me that the big milestones on this journey to parenthood and #adoption happen not in doctors offices and ultrasound labs, but at FedEx, and the bank, and the post office, and immigration offices. And, let’s be honest, Starbucks for much needed fortification.
Today’s big milestone happened at the Office Depot with me and a very nice gentleman who had no idea that he was helping me finish a months long task and get one step closer to bringing our little one home. All the paperwork (minus our letter from immigration) for our dossier is completed, signed, notarized, copied a thousand times, and ready to mail! #filipinoAdoption
I was terrified to mail this off! I asked Garrett a thousand times if we should tape the box and would it get there and was he sure. You would think we were boxing up our firstborn and sending him off. The adoption paperwork process is NO JOKE and for four days I had terrible thoughts of all these original copies getting lost in the mail.
You’ll be glad to know it did in fact arrive at AGCI and we’ve learned we just have a few minor corrections to make, which is a great relief!
I got a little teary-eyed when we walked out of the FedEx. It was just such a BIG deal and it took everything I had not to tell the nice gentleman at the FedEx all about the monumental moment he was participating in.
We still need to receive our I-800A approval from immigration for our dossier to be truly complete and ready to mail to the Philippines. We are hoping to have that in a few weeks, but aren’t too stressed about it because it will be at minimum a few months before our dossier needs to be sent to ICAB anyway.
After we left FedEx – did I mention we FINISHED OUR DOSSIER – we headed to the mall for a celebratory dinner.
We went to ZinBurger and had the most amazing truffle fries and burgers and Red Oak on draft. Truffle.Fries. I want some more right this second.
So what’s next?
Well, now we are in what I call the “passive waiting phase.” We are waiting for God to introduce us to the little boy or girl that will be part of our family forever. It could happen today or tomorrow or 5 months from now or a year.
Once we find our little one, we will petition ICAB (the Filipino agency) to be matched with that child. If we are approved, AGCI will send our dossier to ICAB for an official review, which could take 4-6 months. All that to say there are many, many steps left and hurdles to jump, but having our dossier paperwork completed is a huge step forward in this process.
We truly have no idea when we these next steps will take place, and in the last few weeks I have grown comfortable with that fact. I accept and believe that the Lord is completely sovereign, He knows where our child is, and He is completely in control of when and how our little one will come to us.
That doesn’t mean I don’t want to know right now, right this minute who our little one is. I long to see his or her little face, to learn the name they’ve been given and those little details of their life that God has woven together to bring them into our family. But I’m finding rest in the knowledge that the Lord will reveal all of those details to us in His perfect timing.
The simple truth is if He wanted my little one at my kitchen table, He could have them there in an instant.
Where I am is where He wants me, where my little one is where He wants them. There’s peace in that knowledge, in knowing it’s out of my hands. Yes, it’s frustrating to know that I can’t make it happen, but it’s such gift to know that I also can’t ruin it. All I have to do is wait on Him.
And that’s exactly what we are doing now. We are waiting on Him and trusting that the plan He has for our little one is greater than any I could imagine and better than anything I could do on my own.
So I don’t know when we will bring our little one home, but we are hopeful now that it will be sometime in 2015. I may not have updates for a while as we wait, but I’d love if you would pray for us that we can truly rest in His timing and also that we will know with perfect clarity our little one when we find him/her.